And I try try try...

Although I really tried to,  I didn't write regulary. But I think I really should. It helps me to sort out my feelings and thought. So if you don't mind, it could be I write in german. Coz this is my mother tongue and it's easier to write my thoughts down. 
I'll try to translate my words in english as soon as possible but can't promise.
So hope to see you soon!

Love, Sonny